Take me for who I am....

So here I am, forced to write.


I haven't written in forever, I'll probably say that for the next 5 posts. :)
I'm trying to prove a point.

I'm a little heart broken.
Only a little because I knew it just couldn't be true.
that "love", that I just experienced the past 5 days.

I knew.

I knew last time.

And the Time before that too.


So why do we stay? Why do women stay with disgusting men?

Why? Love? Jealous? Don't think one could move on?

I told him over and over.

Why does he push me away?
Of COURSE, not physically or in our friendship either. But Mentally or hell, His Heart.

Did I not think I honestly deserved better?

Ha.
I knew that.

I knew that the time before that.

and the time before that.
:)

What did I have to prove to him?
Nothing. He knows that.
We were perfect for eachother other than this FACT.


Maybe you can love 2 people.
I think as a human being, if I was selfish enough to, it's possible.

I've heard it done? :)

But why couldn't you just accept that? I did. Ha. But Honestly.
I told you over and over again...

I feel a paradigm shift.
HA. I"M GLAD I HEARD WHAT I DID THAT MORNING>>>>>
WOW! and desperate wouldn't you say?
Your pathetic.


"all you guys still get no love, all you can get is a () you.
get mad if you want tooooo....
kiss my white......
I'm doing my thing.
focused on getting my change,
I'm cool, so please stay outta my faceeeeeee
TOO MANY YEARS I'd paid the price
I aint got the time for no more drama in my life
day after day...
You must be crazy
I still don't love you
() you and everybody on my...
go ahead catch an attitude
I'm gonna do me whether you like it or not
but one thing your gonna have to do is
kick rocks when you see me
ain't no need calling my pphone
you can keep roaching on your own
thinking I'm gonna chill
but baby your wronggggg"

disrespect me, and get more than the songggg..

WOW! I FORGOT HOW MUCH WRITING MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER.
Ha.

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On a lighter note,
Worked all day. needa do some laundry.

A much needed movie night with erica tonight!

Played a extra fun game of Bunco with her family last night! (all girls though!)
Pink Dice. :) Alotta Fun. Ever heard of it?

Maybe will write more laterr.
Thanks blog.
ha.

This is MY blog....

Yes, Angie’s blog inspired me…. Check hers out….

I actually made this a while back, but never wrote my first entry…

I haven’t written in such a long time. I used to write when I was upset. I used to listen to what I had to say by writing it.

I don’t do that anymore…

I don’t know if it’s necessarily that I have a whole lot less to say (because it does feel like that sometimes). I used to be so good with words.  But now it’s that  I don’t know what to say.

And sad thing is, I dont trust you enough to share a piece of myself as writer.

I’m burned. I’m bruised, and I’m broken.

                                                                        Bitter. But don’t worry it’s not a bad thing…

 I’ve been a little too friendly all my life.

I’m not asking u to feel sorry for me because that’s not what it is.  Just saying,  I would rather be ignored.

If you are offended in anything I have to say, you should ignore that too. And you really shouldn’t read on…

 Because I don’t care. J

and I have learned that you probably don't care about me either.

There’s no telling what I’ll have to say in the future, and I’m not trying to offend you, this is my blog- I want to be able to tell how I feel.

At Kolache Depot, have clinicals at the hospital after that,

Than babysitting the Bowlers.

I love each of them! They always make me laugh with all of their different personalities….

It reminds me so much of Roy and Angie…. haha

I’m not quite sure how many walls I will break down in writing in here but right now, it looks like not a lot…

But Hey, Good Start.